So it has been almost a year since I've updated this blog. I use to do it all the time but life had finally taken over. I started school back in August. I was SO freaked out. You know my first semester back at school with no vision. But on my first day I got some really encouraging thing happen. First I called my best friend of like 15 or so years and she was trying to call me down. While talk to our of no where and all of sudden the sky opened up and rain just fell. So as all of you know from my past, that was Charlie encouraging me. All I remember is saying Erin its raining and she was like what have I told you, its all going to be okay! So on my way to school, riding and talking with my dad, I can only imagine comes on. That song we played at my uncle's funeral. Talk about signs.
So my first night class and I'm sitting there, I don't know what is going on. The teacher put us into groups. I was meant to be in that class room at that time I believe because I met Malik Tanner. Someone else who has lived her whole life legally blind. It's going on 9 months since I met her and I can't imagine my life without her. She really has become one of my best friends. People laugh when they hear us talk to each other. (it's not very nice) but we have fun. I started talking to this guy Steven that I've known forever but things were getting really weird and I noticed that he was playing games with me. His "woman" also got out of jail.
The best thing about that is I got my old friend back. The other is my cousin calls me up and ask how I feel about blind dates. Hilarious right? Well I went and we have been together since. His name is Josh Root and he is absolutely amazing. I'm already attached to his family. His nieces and his nephew are so adorable. I absolutely adore his mom. Though we have our moments, I love him.
I finish my first semester at school with 2 B's and 2 C's. Which I guess isn't bad. My second semester didn't start off really good. In February we lost my aunt due to heart and lung failure, I believe. It was very very unexpected. I don't think I will never forget that day. I know my cousin and grandma won't either. I was getting ready to go out of town with Josh and some friends for Valentine's weekend, when my cousin called telling me she needed me. All it took was those three words "I need you" and I was there. I was trying not to freak out but what else can you do with you get that kind of phone call and your aren't there? Well we made it down there in record time it felt like. Passed the ambulance on the way there. It was horrible losing her. I think about her often as I do Robbie and Charlie. Anytime I had the dogs outside I think of her. We use to walk around the barn with the dogs.
These services was great. Except for a few things that I wish I could tell you what it is but then I would be accused of putting too much up on facebook again. Funny that that gets said about me but the only stuff you see on there is about church, school or how I am. Or doctor appointments. Anyways... my grandma went to the beach right after the funeral. She ended up in the hospital with congestive heart failure and pneumonia. We thought we were going to lose her too. But she is back home after months of being down there and is doing great!
She still has her moments as we all do. Just the other day I was out to lunch with my cousin and she told Tanner said I miss my ninny. I felt the tears coming. But we all are doing good I think. My cousin was in her first semester of school when it happened and she still managed to make the President's List.
To end my semester with once again 2 B's and 2 C's. However I am very pleased with that with all that I had to do. Write a 32 page book, deal with the death of my aunt, deal with a academic advisor who believe people with disabilities shouldn't be working with children. I think my first year in school was quite a success.
I have made some amazing new friends. One's that don't just walk away from you either. I've gotten where I'm so tired of friends just walking away and expecting to come back and pick up right where we left off. I've learned a lot in the last 3 years if you haven't noticed. And one of those is never take people for granted. I lost Charlie, and yes were in a relationship but we were more friends than anything. I miss him like crazy, the connection we had, you almost never get that. I miss his mom, sister and Caitlyn too. I haven't talked or seen them in a really long time. I have other things going on but I think I need to deal with them first before posting them on here. Anyways, I'm signing off here. I hope for now on I can update this.
