Hello to all (if anyone still reads this)! I can't remember the last time I wrote something. I do have a lot to say this time I believe. And I apologize in advance if I jump from topic to topic.
Let me start with I'm officially a student again! I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. I'm ready to be done with it. I've been ready to be done with it. I'm excited because I will be getting out of the house and possibly making new friends. It seems I've lost a lot of my other friends. Which I'll get to later. I'm nervous because of the obvious reasons. I don't want people to look at me like a freak. I've gotten where i'm comfortable with it. I can tell people about it, talk about, and joke about it (even if some people can take it a little TOO far). But anyways I am excited because when I get to "student teach" I can pick which school I want to go to, I can even pick the SC school for the deaf and blind, which is awesome! Well I think anyways :)
I am teaching/helping in Sunday school now. I help with the 4/5 yr olds. Those kids are so awesome. Of course the boys can be a little rowdy but they are sweet. The girls are just too sweet. There is Laurie Grace who loves looking in my locket and telling people who is in there. She loves to bring stuff animals to the class and her favorite color is pink. Maura, who has a very unique name. When I first saw it. My first thought was Laura. Lol. Then there is our little energizer bunny, Grace. That child if you are in a bad mood and can't smile when you are when you are around her, then something is majorly wrong with you. She is so happy and hyper. I love it there.
For the most part I believe I am happy. I have my days don't get me wrong. For the first time I feel like my life is on the right track. I hate the way it has gone. I miss Charlie everyday. I know he is watching over me everyday. I will always love him. He will always hold a special place in my heart as you all know, as will his family, who I love dearly and feel like they are my own. I miss my uncle dearly. I wish he was here at family functions laughing and joking with us. Also to see his daughter graduate college. He would/is so proud of her. As we all are. I miss my friends. I've had so many things happen thats in your face be thankful for who you have in your life. About 3 weeks ago i believe I had to say goodbye to another friend. Her and her fiance were killed in a motorcycle wreck. And I even knew who her fiance was. She was my first friend at Applebee's when I moved from the beach. As I was standing there watching the dvd I couldn't help but overhear a coversation someone was having about them two.. It made me realize that I miss that feeling. I remember clearly what it feels like. But I miss the butterflies in the stomach, the feeling like a teenager just because they held your hand. That's when I realized I was ready to move on. Not saying I wasn't before but I was kind of skeptical but I know I am now. I guess I just have to wait.
Anyways maybe I didn't have a lot to say. But that is what's been on my mind lately. Love you all! :)
